The Publisher Bug

I was logging into my FictionPress account a while ago, to see if any lost soul might have wondered away from the mainstream and on my poems (which they hadn't), and happened to notice some interesting ads on the top of the page. 'Have you written a book?' and 'Find a publisher now' -sort of things. So I opened some of them and saw that they were about self publishing.

It's probably not a secret anymore to anyone, really, that I would very much like to be a 'professional' writer, as in, a published one, and a read one as well. Just recently - about a year ago, more or less - I really got bitten by the publisher bug and I sort of told myself that that's what I should aim for, to actually finish one bigger project and get on with it. But I never actually thought about this as much more than a dream, even if it has been haunting me on the back of my mind ever since. Now, though, after I spent a good hour or so reading those sites, I figured that of course it's expensive and all that, but even just to have that one copy in your own hands, that would already feel so good that it would be worth it. Even if no one else in the world would seem to care enough to buy the damn thing.
There were examples of other people who have used those particular services, as is usual, and some of those books didn't seem to be much 'better' than what I could be able to write. I'm not saying here that they were bad, just that - even if I don't trust my own skills or believe in their existence at all sometimes - I might be able to write something like that, too.

This happened in a surprising time, since just a few moments before I decided to log in on the FictionPress site, I had been looking over a list of next school year's optional courses, and wondered what on earth I would do with them. There seems to be none that would actually be of much use to me, if I indeed wanted to pursue on this particular path. The only one on writing itself is one of writing plays, I suppose, and that is just not what I'm going for here, at all. It is the only possibility on the list, though, for me, so that will have to do. And in addition to that I will probably treat myself with yet another language, one which I haven't had the pleasure to study yet.